It was raining outside when I here you calling out for someone's soul to go back home
I stood there trying to hold my tears
Heart beat faster, hands started to tremble
Lips were shaking then I realised you'd come to me soon
I remember the first time I've lost someone whom I waited for so long
No longer than 72 hours
My heart broke into pieces
Couldn't see her face, or even touch her cold skin
Words were stuttered as I tried to hide my tears behind my silence
I remember someone who wrote the gravestone even asked in shout, "who's her name?" as he held a marker and started to write on that white-cold stone
You didn't even have a name when the death came to pick you up, geez
I was 12 that day
I remember the first time I walked from the house to the cemetery handing a big bowl full of flowers
Capturing every single expressions of mourners
Comparing theirs with my own
My eyes were down, my legs shaking
and I kept imagining
I remember the first time I saw a body wrapped in white fabric being buried into the ground
Couldn't hold my tears anymore
It streamed down slowly as I was trying hard to hide it
Flowers were sowed
Hole was closed
Tears came down and cracked my eyes in silence
I was 15 that day
Death comes in sudden
It don't ask you to be well-prepared
It don't inform when it will knock your door
It don't ask for your permission
It's been years since first I experienced a death
Heard many sad news
Saw many biers lifting a dead body
Slightly wonder how is my death going to be
Then, I was scared of ghost when I heard the death news came up from my neighbors
But now, as I grew up and understand life better, I am scared of death will knock my door after it
